Chapter 23: Accepting Myself

  "Kate~"

  As soon as she arrived at the company, Lisa was greeting her.

  "Good morning, Lisa." Catherine also greeted her.

  "Come and try it out!"

  As soon as they came in, Lisa pulled Catherine into the dressing room and urged Catherine to take off her already small bra, then took out her own bra.

  It looks pretty good, it's black and the texture is very comfortable. The floral pattern on top also looks beautiful, and Lisa sewed it herself - obviously she didn't buy it but made it herself.

  Catherine took off her outer garment and then removed Lisa's now smaller bra and put it on.

  The bra is very comfortable, once you put it on, it seems like you don't want to take it off.

  But Catherine still wanted to take it off - this bra, which surprisingly didn't cover those cherries.

  Her face turned red.

  "What's wrong, Kate? Don't you like it?"

  "Ah, no... I just feel it's too sexy, too revealing."

  Suddenly, somehow, I'm excited.

  This bra is a killer for men, so Catherine used to like it too. However, when she wears it herself, although it looks good, there's always an inexplicable feeling.

  "Wear it, I've been up all night making three of them. I guarantee you'll like it in just three days."

  "Well... I suppose it's like that then."

  Catherine hastily put on her clothes... This is too embarrassing.

  "That's already being quite conservative..."

  Lisa suddenly added a sentence.

  But Catherine just sighed.

  Lisa has been designing clothes since she started, and her measurements have been getting bigger and bigger, I really don't know why.

  "Alright, I still have a class at SAB, see you at school tomorrow."

  "Uh-huh."

  Catherine walked out of the company and headed towards school.

  But after walking for a while, I felt something was wrong with my chest.

  Catherine's face also suddenly turned bright red.

  Fortunately, this side is not far from SAB, so she arrived quickly and changed into her training uniform.

  But on her originally tight leotard, two points were actually protruding, which left Catherine aghast.

  She gritted her teeth and put on that already small bra again.

  Throughout the entire training process, she felt uncomfortable all over.

  What made her feel even stranger and more unbearable was that after training, she inexplicably put it on again, and as a result, when she returned home, Catherine only felt that there was a lot of sweat down there.

  But after returning home, she finally felt at ease and decided to take a bath.

  Soaking in the bathtub, Catherine's feverish brain had temporarily cooled down. The warm bath made her feel incredibly comfortable.

  After an unknown period of time, she sat up in the bathtub and stared at herself in the mirror.

  One side of myself in the mirror still retains some childish appearance, while another part has already begun to mature.

  It's time for me to grow up?

  Become a real woman?

  Catherine had thought about this issue countless times.

  But she always does, this thing seems so far away.

  But now it's so close to itself.

  It's been twelve and a half years since I came into this world. Catherine thought she had resigned herself to her fate, but it turned out that she was still resisting in her heart.

  I have already started growing up. The bras in my closet won't lie, and this increasingly curvaceous body of mine won't lie either.

  After washing up, she didn't leave the bathroom but stood in front of the mirror instead.

  "Follow your instincts..."

  Let bygones be bygones.

  As long as you still remember in your heart that you are a boy and recall those past events, everything now can be accepted.

  Why care so much about gender?

  "You're so beautiful, Catherine... I like you... I... am you..."

  She seems to have completely let go.

  The fingers slid downwards.

  This is her second time doing this with a clear sense of self-awareness. But it's also her first real self-relief.

  She seems to be infatuated, with her mind full of thoughts about herself.

  There's nothing in this world that can make people feel happier than this...

  When Catherine came back to herself, the mirror was like it had been splashed with water. She put on her nightgown with a bright red face and then wiped the mirror clean.

  "Kate, you're just you, remember?"

  She said to herself in front of the mirror.

  That was a beautiful girl, Catherine also discovered for the first time that she was really so beautiful...

  Wait a minute.

  Catherine seems to have noticed something.

  Could it be that I was so entangled before... because I had fallen in love with myself?

  It seems so.

  Before that, Catherine had always thought of herself as a man living in a female body and never considered herself to be truly a woman.

  So... she fell in love with this girl.

  "Self-love? Heh..."

  She smiled self-deprecatingly.

  But suddenly she realized that she was actually this girl.

  "I am who I am, whether male or female, I am here..."

  She took a deep breath.

  Some things can't be changed, and Catherine didn't want to change them either.

  I like women, although the gender has changed, but this "like" cannot be changed either. Hormones can affect one's body, but hormones cannot change one's worldview that has been formed for decades.

  In this immature body is a former man's soul.

  It's just that now this soul has merged with this body.

  No matter what, I am still myself, as long as I move forward in my own direction without getting lost, then this world is not so scary.

  Catherine has now fully accepted her identity, she is who she is and not something else, and will not change anything because of her mood. Reality does not change with one's will, what can be done is only to accept oneself.

  A person who can't even accept themselves, rebirth would be a waste.

  She tilted her head and continued staring at the girl in the mirror.

  She is so lovely and just Catherine's type. Only she had never paid attention to herself before.

  "Let it be."

  She smiled and then walked out of the bathroom.

  She still has a lot of things to do, GameTV's patent and commercial production, the filming of "The Blair Witch", as well as the illustrations and derivative series of "Harry Potter".

  Since she came into this world, Catherine decided that she couldn't be an ordinary person. She wanted to make money, become a celebrity and realize her original extravagant fantasies.

  "I came into this world, and the world turned because of me."

  She said so.