Chapter 60: It's Hard to Love Someone

  Song Qian suddenly suggested sleeping in the same room as herself, Zheng Xiujing didn't think much of it. After all, the five of them were occupying three rooms and originally needed two pairs to share a room. They had left the single room treatment for their captain. But Song Qian gave up her room to Sherry who wasn't sleeping well and suggested resting with Zheng Xiujing instead, which was perfectly fine.

  As Zheng Xiujing was still savoring the intimate contact with Han Ankang, she felt that as long as she could stay by his side, it seemed to be very fulfilling. She also wondered if she had really fallen in love with this boy whom she had only met a few times. Just as Zheng Xiujing was indulging in this joy and confusion, Song Qian, who was lying beside her, suddenly said something that startled her.

  "Xiao Shui Jing, have you fallen in love with him?"

  Zheng Xiujing, who thought she had hidden it well, heard this and became flustered, laughing awkwardly: "Song Ma, what are you talking about? Who am I, how could I possibly like Han Oppa? You're overthinking!"

  Facing Zheng Xiujing with a panicked gaze, Song Qian, who had been with her for more than one or two days, forced a smile on her face and said: "Little Water Crystal, you still can't change, when you tell a lie, your eyes roll around and you stutter. And I didn't say that he was Brother Han just now, you're a bit self-incriminating!"

  Actually, you don't have to worry about my thoughts. I just feel that the way you're acting now is no longer like a little sister being close to her brother. Look at Brother Han's eyes, they clearly show a gaze that has been moved. I also don't know why I feel this way. But can you deceive me and still deceive your own heart?

  I swapped rooms with Sherry last night, and I don't think there's anything wrong with you falling for Da Ge. I understand it more clearly than you do. Any girl who spends a lot of time with him would fall for him unless she's an idiot. A boy as gentle, considerate, and understanding as he is - no girl would want to miss out on that.

  Are you just confirming that you understand him? I don't hide from you, I also like him, and even start to find it uncontrollable. But do you see any difference in the way he treats me compared to you guys? No, have you thought about the reason behind it?

  Through these few days of contact, haven't you found that he lacks a nerve of emotion in his brain? If he's a boy who understands that there's rarely pure friendship between men and women, do you think he could face tonight's events so calmly? Leaving us several fragrant beauties unattended, he'd rather run upstairs to read those medical books.

  I suppose that in his eyes, those medical books are his true love, and medicine is what he truly cares about. As for other romantic feelings, he wouldn't even consider them now, let alone try to understand or experience them. You're still young, do you really want to continue waiting aimlessly for a feeling that may never come to fruition?

  You might wonder why I don't oppose you pursuing him. What I can tell you is that from the day I came into contact with him, I was labeled as his girlfriend. If I still want to make a name for myself in the South Korean entertainment industry, then this label I cannot remove, even if he just treats me as a friend.

  His presence makes life easier for me and all of you. Don't think I'm using him, it's just his nature to be sincere with every friend. He'll help whenever there's trouble, but making him understand the difference between friendship and love is still unknown when that will happen. Have you really thought this through? Or are you prepared to suffer for love?

  He is now like a treasure that has just been unearthed, and his value has not yet been fully revealed. If given time, he will inevitably become a figure standing at the pinnacle of power, just like the four major families in South Korea.

  Such a young man, with such an excellent character, do you think he will be unloved in the future? Have you thought about what to do if another girl appears beside him in the future? Are you willing to share this successful man with other girls? If you are really mentally prepared for all this, then I won't stop you from pursuing him.

  If he really had a girl by his side that day, I would leave calmly. Because I know, the distance between him and me is too far, and it's unrealistic to yearn for such a distant love. Unless he truly understood my intentions that day and opened up his heart to accept me. Otherwise, leaving is the best way for both of us!

  As she spoke the last sentence, Song Qian's tears flowed unconsciously, and Zheng Xiujing was also stunned. She really hadn't thought deeply about these things. In her mind, the idea was very simple: as long as Han Ankang was with her, she wouldn't feel afraid, but instead felt happy and sweet. It was this feeling that made her dependent on Han Ankang. As for whether this dependence was love or not, Zheng Xiujing didn't understand either.

  Song Qian, who has matured a lot in terms of thought and psychology, was also slightly entangled when she spoke frankly with Zheng Xiujing. Although she is in the entertainment industry and has seen countless powerful figures surrounded by numerous girls, even according to what she knows, some top female stars in South Korea are currently **kept women** of certain big shots.

  Love is a luxury for girls who have been struggling in the entertainment industry for many years. Especially for these female stars who have just debuted, if there are rumors of romance, it's almost a disaster for them. However, when faced with demands from powerful figures, many of them are powerless to resist.

  Either quit the entertainment industry or accept this identity of being someone else's plaything, enjoying the glamorous appearance behind the bitter. The real insider of the female star who committed suicide a few years ago was that she couldn't bear the life of being humiliated and played with by others, and finally chose to commit suicide. But their deaths also failed to shake those people who drove them to desperation, it's sad, a sadness belonging to these beautiful female stars with glamorous appearance.

  This time, they were arranged to be at Han Ankang's home with such peace of mind by the company, and it is also a matter of course that they are regarded as a tool for making friends with Han Ankang. If Han Ankang really has bad intentions, what will happen to them? I'm afraid it's hard for them to get real fairness except accepting the result. To put it bluntly, they are too far away from the people at the top of the food chain at this moment.

  Zheng Xiujing, who had been hesitating for a while, suddenly became serious and firm after understanding the situation: "Song mom, I understand what you mean, but have you ever thought that if it weren't for OPPA's reason and relationship, do you think those people who used to control you would be so obedient and back down?

  I don't know what will happen in the future, but I do know that Han OPPA is a good person. If he accepts me, then it's not a big deal even if I'm with him. Why worry about being bullied by those disgusting old men when we can use Han OPPA as a shield? At least for now, Han OPPA is the closest to us, and that's an obvious fact.

  Even if he's as clueless about romance as a block of wood right now, the existence of this block of wood will still intimidate those ill-intentioned bad people. If in the future, HAN OPPA really doesn't like us, then we'll just quit the entertainment industry and go find our own love. These few years, let's save some money, as long as we have money in hand, why do we have to suffer at the hands of those disgusting men?

  Although she is young, it doesn't mean that Zheng Xiujing doesn't understand the concept of siding with the strong. Growing up in the US, she appears more open-minded than Song Qian who was born and raised in China. Of course, this doesn't mean that she will easily give herself to a boy she doesn't like. As long as it's someone she likes, then she won't regret giving her all.

  Moreover, worrying about things that are too far away is not as good as grasping the present in her opinion. At least Han Ankang's attitude towards them now, although not too much, is still very friendly and restrained. With this relationship, Zheng Xiujing believes that their development in the South Korean entertainment circle will reduce the interference of outsiders who are greedy for fame.

  Facing Zheng Xiujing's straightforwardness, Song Qian knew that this was a difference in personality between the two of them, and she couldn't understand Zheng Xiujing's thoughts. However, she also knew that Zheng Xiujing's thoughts were more realistic and direct than hers. Now all that was left was how she should face Han Ankang with what kind of mentality? Moreover, Zheng Xiujing's words at the beginning really made her think and feel afraid.

  They say the entertainment industry is a big dye vat, and after debuting, Song Qian started to gain some fame due to her sweet appearance and mature figure. Undoubtedly, she was also targeted by many people with power. If it weren't for her non-Korean identity, plus her company's influence in Korea, which can intimidate many petty people, I'm afraid the more famous she becomes, the more troubles she'll attract.

  Ever since she got to know Han Ankang, those phone calls that used to harass her seemed to have disappeared into thin air. Not only did her road to stardom in South Korea become smooth sailing, but even the old guys with ulterior motives in the company became honest and well-behaved one by one. This change is enough to prove that having a powerful backer in the entertainment industry is indeed a good thing!

  Just thinking about what that old man said, Song Qian was really worried. If Han Ankang had feelings for her, then it would be fine, but if he couldn't feel her emotions, wouldn't she have to continue being ambiguous and wear the label of "Han Ankang's girlfriend"? This label, for the current Song Qian, was still very important.

  Song Qian, who felt more and more confused, found that Zheng Xiujing, who had been hesitant earlier, was now sleeping peacefully. Looking at her opponent who seemed to be sleeping very sweetly, Song Qian also felt that sometimes simplicity can be a good thing.

  At least don't overthink things and make a fuss about nothing like she does, worrying or complaining about things that haven't even happened yet! Isn't this just asking for trouble?